My name is Kassidy. I am an Arkansas-born transsexual. I could not deal with coming out to myself or anyone else in that narrow-minded arena of bias prejudice.



I moved to Missouri in 2002, and began the slow, arduous process of finding out who I REALLY am. Cross dressing and performing Drag were not enough. I have finally come to grips with that.



With the aid of my precious Kelly, I am finally at the threshold of MY life. I am starting this site as a form of therapy to keep my focus and sanity.(Not that I am insane) Face it, this isn't an easy decision to make. So, please forgive any inconsistencies and occasional rantings, ravings, etc, as I have many opinions and am not afraid to air them out. TR-R-RUST me friends.



I'll add more to this as I figure it out myself. Please stay tuned........

Who is Kassie???

I grew up around the sprawling metropolis(LOL) of Mountain Home, in the north-central part of Arkansas.Yeah, the pretty part around the lakes. The lakes are pretty and just chock-full of narrow-minded, bible-toting, prejudicial people. I had to endure that until I was 14. Growing up in that environment is tough enough as a normal child. I was quite withdrawn and angry with the world, GOD, and anyone else that crossed my path. I couldn't identify with my born gender role. I simply did not know how. Boys fight, okay I fight. I just failed to realize that there was a time and a place for everything.



I had to establish myself as Dominant. I thought that would satiate everyone and help me to be accepted. That, in turn, would help me to accept myself.(Wrong Answer) I thought as long as I had the acceptance of those around me I could peacefully co-exist with my inner-most issues. Those issues nearly destroyed me psychologically. If you can't love yourself, how in the Hell do you expect to love anyone else?



I absolutely abhorred myself, inside and out. I was too much of an Alpha-male( I don't know if that's an actual word or not, but it works for this purpose) I could not stand anyone to do better than me on tests or anything for that matter. I had to be the strongest, fastest, smartest, best overall person to everyone I connected with. That did not win me any popularity contests.



I done all the crazy, macho shit everyone else was doing. Anything to deter people from seeing who I really was. Well, the camouflage worked real well, but I still couldn't convince myself.



I detested anything masculine, especially myself.

I would like to impart some advice:

How the next generation of Transpeople are accepted, will be dependent on the examples WE set today !!!!!!!!!!!!!!